Persistence

This week has been emotionally tough. I haven’t been in the mood to write or even open up my documents to begin the process. I had nothing to write about and nothing to share. I was not in the right place at all. I talked to my mother earlier, and she told me about the Woman and The judge and how through the Woman’s persistence she was able to accomplish her goal. It was the word persistence that struck me. It is interesting how you need to be persistent to be consistent. You have to push through feelings, problems that are present and anxiety/depression. You can not quit. The will to be persistent is the drive that leads to consistency.

Every day it will feel like you are tearing down brick walls named, “I don’t FEEL like it” or “I am not in the mood.”  Somedays those walls won’t even be knocked down, and you will slip back into inconsistency.  But true persistency is when you get back up, and you fight harder. Each time you get knocked down, fight. Every time you run into a wall, fight. Fight to win and don’t give up.

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Healing Your Past and Releasing Your Future

Healing is something that is near and dear to my heart. It is the space that I am in right now, it is my focus.  I have been through a lot and some of the things that I have been through inhibited me from moving forward in my life.  Living in the past has left me confused and directionless.   When I acknowledged that I needed some clarity in my life, it was time to start reading Healing Your Past and Releasing Your Future.

Have you ever felt directionless, a lack of clarity or even like you don’t know your purpose? Maybe it is time for us to start our healing journies instead of looking for a purpose.

I have had this book collecting dust or in the back of a bag somewhere and I finally decided to read it. I needed to read it.  This book for me was going to be the blueprint for healing.

While Reading Healing Your Past and Releasing Your Future

Healing is a process. It includes letting go of baggage and replacing it with positive things. Healing can mean not replaying a particular part of your past, which can happen subconsciously or consciously.

Some steps towards healing include acknowledging, letting go and moving on.  One of the parts of Healing Your Past and Releasing Your Future is the structure and steps provided. At the end of each chapter, there are steps to healing, freedom, and restoration and then charts showing healthy and unhealthy development.

Structure of Chapters

Each chapter starts off with a story/example and breaks off to explain what is suppose to happen at each stage.  After the explanation,  we get the conclusion of the story which is when the primary person goes through the healing process and is restored.

The chapter concludes with the charts as mentioned earlier and steps towards healing.

What I learned

One of the most interesting points that the book makes is that the world doesn’t run on feelings. That phrase made me think of my relationship with my emotions. I had confused my feelings with intuition.  My feelings had ruled my world and told me what to do. After reading that phrase, I decided to let that way of thinking go.

This book also helped me identify roots and triggers. I found that going through each stage of development was helpful and learning the outcomes of each step has also opened my eyes.

The Ending of Healing Your Past, Releasing Your Future

The end ties everything together.  The Fabiano’s compares physical and emotional development with spiritual development which I found to be very helpful.  The ending could have been a little bit more polished as far as ideas are concerned. Otherwise, it tied everything together.

Summary

If you are someone who is looking to get started on their healing journey I recommend this book as the first step. Healing your past and releasing your future is a blueprint for you to begin mapping out triggers or specific struggles that you need to work through.

For me:

Even though the book can be classified as a self-help book, after reading it I feel more encouraged to go to therapy. This book has helped me identify some internal struggles of mine, and it’ll make my therapy journey much more thorough.

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Healing Your Past, Releasing Your Future: Discover the Roots of Your Problems, Experience Healing and Breakthrough to Your God-given Destiny

Fleeting Thoughts and Struggling Commitments

Fleeting thoughts or I should say random good ideas that I make on the fly are kind of like a vice to me. It feels right for the moment, but it’s temporary. I can’t seem to stick to one idea and finish (which I talked about in scaling back). Some of my thoughts have to take a back seat because of circumstances. It is very frustrating. I haven’t been able to write as often because of my emotions, or I am too busy trying to chase after something else.

Because I don’t have any obligations and I am not in a romantic relationship I thought that I would try and go back to Australia. That was one of my life’s goals. I have been looking for a job and attempting to save some money but again life’s circumstances happen, and then I pretty much have to wait.

I wanted to finish The Chronicles of Phoenix, but I became depressed and frustrated that I couldn’t even work on it anymore, I stopped writing on my blog for a while as well.

Most of the time I feel like I have to do something. I have to start a business, go back to University, just something.

What I didn’t realize is that I am not grounded in anything.

I haven’t laid a foundation for myself. I am struggling with some things internally that keep me away from pursuing things that I want. I do want to go to Australia, but I feel as if it hard to accomplish that goal. I want to finish my stories, but again it is hard to achieve that goal.

I say that the problem is life circumstances but what if it is me?

I want to change this narrative.

I am almost finished with one of my favorite self-help books which are, Healing your past and Releasing your future, this book was very eye-opening and inspirational, but now I think instead of just using self-help books I want to do a therapy plan.

I usually do not like counseling, but I think it is time to go. Lately, I have wished I had someone to talk to about my problems, and I want to heal. I felt like I was working through my problems, but then so many things had happened, and I went back a step.
I feel lost and confused. I want clarity. So here is my plan of action:

Float Therapy:
Float Therapy works, I was thoroughly surprised by how I felt after Float therapy and I have been thinking about including it in a monthly regime. Float therapy is a great time to clear my mind and relax.

Counseling:
I have found a counselor who fits my needs, and I am excited about the process. I am glad that I can release some baggage that I have kept in or I have released in the wrong way.

Spirituality:
I want to have a deeper relationship with God. Lately, I have been conscious of how I act and what I say. I want to read more of the Bible and Pray more. I am upset when I don’t spend enough time with God. I have also been doing a new Bible Study in Romans.

Many of us have a lot of setbacks; it could be life’s circumstances or ourselves. But sometimes we need to have a change of perspective. Maybe you don’t know where your life is going and can’t make up your mind. I encourage you to take this journey with me to pursue serenity and creative freedom.

 

 

6 Life Changing lessons I have learned from the Armor of God

Bible study is very redundant and uninteresting. The Bible study leaders don’t go in depth. This Bible study, however, was different. Priscilla Shirer takes her time and explains the idea of the Armor of God from Ephesians and why it is important. Not only did I learn about the Armor of God, but I also learned about myself. I have learned that I built a cage for myself. I was the reason I wasn’t doing my best. Through this Bible study, I am able to destroy this cage and do better for myself and I want you to do the same. I want to share some lessons from Bible study that liberated me, and hopefully, you will feel the same way. Here are some questions that I had before that Bible study has answered. Maybe you have had the same questions too…

Have you ever felt like you’ll never be Righteous?

One of the most liberating lessons that I have learned from Bible study is that I am Righteous. It feels great to know that I don’t have to be perfect to be righteous. Knowing that I am righteous gives me the courage to follow God’s law. The law isn’t as overwhelming. I can focus more on the relational aspect of God’s law and do his will.

What is Sanctification?

Sanctification is a process.
Through our love for God, we choose to do what is right. Through God’s love for us, we learn what is right. Sanctification is stepping into righteousness with confidence. This process is a beautiful thing. We become closer to God and learn more about ourselves. It’s a win-win situation.

Don’t I need to be perfect to be Righteous?

You won’t get righteousness from perfection.
Perfectionism is a distraction. When we are busy trying to make ourselves perfect that we forget about God’s role in our lives. We will never reach perfection on our own and plus our vision of perfection is skewed. The point is we don’t have to be perfect. We do the will of God because we love God and God loves us.

Why must I know The Truth?

It is important to know the Truth (God’s Truth)
God’s truth reduces anxiety and also gives you confidence. Knowing who you are or why you do the things that you do is very helpful. Through God’s insight, we can be our best. God’s truth is also helpful for making decisions. It protects you from events that could’ve happened or delayed processes.

What is Faith?

Faith is “assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of thing hoped for, the conviction of things not seen“. Faith is action. Faith also means to wait. This also means don’t follow your own plan. With faith, you know God will give you an answer.

Will I ever have peace now? Do I have to wait until I go to Heaven

Peace is internal.
Peace is already inside of you, just tap into it. It is a guide. It is clarity, confidence, and stability. It doesn’t just come when you go to heaven it comes as a result of gratitude.
Reflecting or referencing what God has done for you, others or God brings peace.

I am not finished with Bible study yet but I have learned a lot. These lessons gave me a new outlook on life and Christianity. Now, I know that the only thing holding me from being the best in me. Everything that I need is already within me. I just need to tap into it.

Experience Freedom for yourself…pick up a copy of the Armor of God


The Armor of God

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Scaling Back

Being A Vessel For God

I often go back to Elizabeth Gilbert’s first Ted talk where she urges the audience to change their perspective on the connotation of genius. I remember my Pastor reflected on the Ted talk and said that Elizabeth Gilbert was talking about God. In my opinion, she was talking about more than just God. Elizabeth Gilbert talked about our relationship with God. Specifically, being a vessel for God.

I use to look at being a vessel for God in a negative light. I didn’t like the terms USE and VESSEL because it sounded empty and void of life. Once I began my Bible Study, The Armor of God, and my perspective changed.

After doing my Bible study, I thought about my purpose in the world. It was a pretty random thought process (which I have pretty often). I thought about how sad it would be to be placed on this earth to do one thing… or even worse, one small thing was your purpose. I also thought about how we do not even know our purpose until it is time for us to fulfill it…then it is over. I went back to Elizabeth’s Ted Talk. There was one part in particular where she talks about the dancer dancing the one dance and possibly not dancing the same dance again. The phrase that kept popping up in my head was “IT isn’t about you”. That is when I understood it.

It really isn’t about me. The focus not being on me should be liberating. I only have to be a vessel for God. God isn’t like a business that expects me to do the same thing over and over. God IS crafting me, day by day, for his purpose. I don’t have to carry the weight of the responsibility. I don’t need to know my purpose until God is ready to reveal it to me.

I use to be jealous of my best friend because I would compare myself to her. We both have always wanted to know what God wants us to do in life. She is with a ministry and has it defined. I, on the other hand, am still dabbling in my loves, the only thing I am trying to ground myself in is Christianity. But now that I know What I know now I can focus on what is more important.

I use to be so wrapped up in trying to figure out what my purpose was that I was suicidal. I was at University and I didn’t know what to do. On top of that, I see others who have these well-thought-out plans and doing things with their lives. Now that I know I don’t have to know what my purpose is and I do not need to compare myself to others…I can put more focus on me and My relationship with God.

Today, if you struggled with something similar I encourage you to stop wondering what your purpose is. Again, it is not for you to know at this time. Instead, focus on building up a relationship with God. I highly recommend reading the Armor of God. It helped me put some things in perspective and I am sure you will enjoy it. The link is down below along with some other great titles!


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Scaling Back

 

 

A Post to come

Hi everyone, I am not going to do a traditional post today instead I am gonna let you in on what is going on in my life right now.

  1. I am working on a couple of blog posts but because of life, it won’t be posted today.

I don’t like having my post already typed the day of posting and that is something that I am trying to slowly get over.  I have been struggling with ideas and writing but I have been inspired by the next update.

2. I have been reading The Armour of God Bible Study

This book is by the same Pastor who made War Room. I highly recommend it. It is a very eye-opening read. Going through the Bible study has inspired some topics that I would like to write on this blog, it is very insightful. Pastor Shirer takes us through Ephesians 6 and all of the pieces of armor listed.  I will definitely do a blog post on the Bible Study as well when I finish.

3.Freewriting

I have been freewriting some stories.  I decided to write the Chronicles of Phoenix like a free write because I had been changing a lot of stuff in the story to get it to my liking. I have also been working on a different story. This story was one that I had put on the back burner but I was drawn to the character so much that I didn’t want to keep it on the backburner any longer. I know that I need to finish my projects that I had started…and I will but I felt like I really needed to get this idea out of my head. Freewriting for me is exploring the ideas within my head and seeing where I can go with it. I enjoy it very much and honestly I really need to do it much more. It is surprising because I like freewriting stories more than anything.

4.Attempting to get through Healing Your Past and Releasing your Future

That book is a heavy read. I am learning a lot from reading the book but it isn’t something that you read on a consistent basis. You take it with chunks, pray, finish the book and then read it again. It is another insightful book, highly recommend it and I am surprised that it isn’t more talked about.

5. Reading The Bible and getting my Spiritual Well-being together

I am starting really slow with reading the Bible. Bible study is helping me become consistent as well as being conscious. I feel great when I eat bananas, read the Bible, Pray, and post. Legit. It is a good day when I do what is essential for me. I have been going chapter by chapter and re-reading chapters until I understand what is going on. The key part is understanding what you are reading and asking God to keep you focused while you read.

That is pretty much it and I enjoyed sharing my update with you. Let me know what is going on in your life or if you are going through the same things. I like hearing comments from Y’all….it keeps me going!

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The Idea

Ideas are everywhere. The imagination is an endless source of inspiration. It is just hard giving birth to the idea.

It is a constant struggle for clarity on what the idea is. We tend to make the simplest ideas complex and what we perceive as complex is actually simple. We have to free ourselves from pressure in order to get to the nuts and bolts of an idea. This is why play/fun is very important to the creative process. So I have some questions why on earth do we put unnecessary pressure on ourselves? I am talking about perfection or wanting to make something grander than it needs to be. Pressure and standards we set for ourselves ultimately limit us.

 

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