I have anxiety and major depression. One of the things I do to help me stay productive and energetic is bananas. Bananas are a natural stress reliever and it instantly gives you energy. I challenge all of you to try and eat a banana a day and let the stress go away. Here is an article for you to read about Bananas!
The most detrimental choice that I made was chasing after purpose. I did not know what to do after high school. The high school I went to put a lot of pressure on going to college and making a career choice while I was a sophomore. I did not know what to do. I started trying to look for my purpose as if I was gonna get all of the answers to questions like what I was good at and how I was going to be successful. All of the stress piled up and led to suicidal attempts, spending three days in the psych ward and then missing school. The more I searched for my purpose, the less I felt fulfilled. I made my own purpose sometimes and tried to take control. I didn’t enjoy life at all and it was hard for me to build a foundation. As I grew up my likes changed and what I thought I wanted I didn’t want anymore. It took me seeking God instead of my purpose to know that it isn’t for me to know right now. I have the choice of being happy if I didn’t hold myself to such high standards and accept who I was created to be. Instead of trying to be God let God do his job.
A career isn’t the sole reason why we live. It is beyond that. In our society, it feels like that is all we live for.
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I’m so anxious to write something amazing. I’m so anxious to get out of school. I’m so anxious to hit that spot in life where I can just take off running. I’m so anxious to finally live the life I had always dreamed. This anxiety overwhelms me to the point of doing something crazy. I run myself crazy and try to numb the pain by focusing all my energy into something meaningless. I try and escape from my anxiety but I can not. I lose myself and probably some of my brain cells trying to lose myself in a fantasy world in order to lie and wait for my life to begin.
I’m sick of everything. I lock myself in the room. I wait anxiously for inspiration to comes and when it does I lose energy. I drown myself into something else. I distract myself. I listen to the other voices of people giving me suggestions when it is like they don’t know the whole story. i want to pour my heart and soul into something. I always thought writing was that outlet. I like but I dislike it. Why couldn’t it have been drawing because I’ve always wanted to draw my own anime? It naturally became an interest to me and I focused on it long and hard. Why couldn’t it be business? I went to school for it yet I failed but many business women were impressed by me. Many failures and many business ideas yet no turn out.
I am burned out from school and not knowing who I am or what I should do. I try and avoid people because I am a chameleon and lose myself within the process yet you need them for the process that you must have to find out what to do. I’m so sick of heartbreak, hurt, numbness and pain. I am sick of failure with school and poor choices.
I want to thrive, I want to thrive, I want to thrive so much that I am losing my mind.
I seek after God to know the truth. I seek God to learn about me. I feel so delusional. When I feel God’s comfort I feel the most sane. When I am in silence I feel the most peace. When I am in prayer I feel the best and when I am working with in the spirit my soul can be at rest. If only I surrender.