Being More Conscious

Our minds are clouded by money and other stresses, or you see other people living the life you want to live. It is hard especially when you look at other people with financial freedom, locational freedom and just freedom in general…then there is you….struggling to find or maintain a job, you have dreams that sometimes feel hard to obtain, bills and debt.

It seems like when can you ever catch a break?

Everything else but the right thing is on our mind, so we need to shift focus. I’m not saying quit your day job or anything like that. All I am saying is put your relationship with God before anything. It’s hard for me too. Lately, I’ve been feeling so much pressure around me to start something. I have so many projects that are hard to finish because I acted out of stress. I don’t even enjoy working on my projects anymore. The pressure has been useful in some ways because I have been more productive, but I am doing this because I want what others have. There isn’t anything wrong with being productive but be conscious of why you are productive. Don’t just copy others, be you. Be authentic. Stop trying so hard and stop stressing out over stuff that doesn’t even really matter. It is all temporary. Wait on God and put your spiritual health/ mental health first, everything that is supposed to come will come. Here is how you will do it:

“Cooperating with the will of God and not chasing Dreams”- Tim Storey

Servitude, Holiness and Seeking first the kingdom of God actively instead of chasing after things of this Earth

Go to therapy if you need to

Get your mental health together.

If you don’t have time for anything or you, don’t have the money to do the things that will help you live your best life (such as therapy or even enjoy life) then think of downsizing or pick up a side hustle.

Put your spiritual health and yourself first…everything else will fall in line.

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Fleeting Thoughts and Struggling Commitments

Fleeting thoughts or I should say random good ideas that I make on the fly are kind of like a vice to me. It feels right for the moment, but it’s temporary. I can’t seem to stick to one idea and finish (which I talked about in scaling back). Some of my thoughts have to take a back seat because of circumstances. It is very frustrating. I haven’t been able to write as often because of my emotions, or I am too busy trying to chase after something else.

Because I don’t have any obligations and I am not in a romantic relationship I thought that I would try and go back to Australia. That was one of my life’s goals. I have been looking for a job and attempting to save some money but again life’s circumstances happen, and then I pretty much have to wait.

I wanted to finish The Chronicles of Phoenix, but I became depressed and frustrated that I couldn’t even work on it anymore, I stopped writing on my blog for a while as well.

Most of the time I feel like I have to do something. I have to start a business, go back to University, just something.

What I didn’t realize is that I am not grounded in anything.

I haven’t laid a foundation for myself. I am struggling with some things internally that keep me away from pursuing things that I want. I do want to go to Australia, but I feel as if it hard to accomplish that goal. I want to finish my stories, but again it is hard to achieve that goal.

I say that the problem is life circumstances but what if it is me?

I want to change this narrative.

I am almost finished with one of my favorite self-help books which are, Healing your past and Releasing your future, this book was very eye-opening and inspirational, but now I think instead of just using self-help books I want to do a therapy plan.

I usually do not like counseling, but I think it is time to go. Lately, I have wished I had someone to talk to about my problems, and I want to heal. I felt like I was working through my problems, but then so many things had happened, and I went back a step.
I feel lost and confused. I want clarity. So here is my plan of action:

Float Therapy:
Float Therapy works, I was thoroughly surprised by how I felt after Float therapy and I have been thinking about including it in a monthly regime. Float therapy is a great time to clear my mind and relax.

Counseling:
I have found a counselor who fits my needs, and I am excited about the process. I am glad that I can release some baggage that I have kept in or I have released in the wrong way.

Spirituality:
I want to have a deeper relationship with God. Lately, I have been conscious of how I act and what I say. I want to read more of the Bible and Pray more. I am upset when I don’t spend enough time with God. I have also been doing a new Bible Study in Romans.

Many of us have a lot of setbacks; it could be life’s circumstances or ourselves. But sometimes we need to have a change of perspective. Maybe you don’t know where your life is going and can’t make up your mind. I encourage you to take this journey with me to pursue serenity and creative freedom.

 

 

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Stop searching for that Golden Idea

Stop searching for that one idea that’ll make you successful. There are different ways to get to your goal; there isn’t just one way. Think about Billionaires; they don’t have one source of income, there are multiple streams of income. Billionaires continue to grow and evolve, so should we. Again, stop putting all of your hopes on one project.

 

Even if it’s only one idea that is successful, it is ok. Having one victory does not mean stop working at your craft. If your victory brings in income, that means less stress and more time to work on what you love.

 

It is unnecessary to wear yourself out about one idea. Let thoughts come to you. It is in those quiet moments when ideas will come to you. They are so subtle that you won’t even notice it. Stop and have a moment of clarity. Relax. The thoughts that you want to focus on are re-occurring, they are strong passions, it’ll occur when you are close to your spiritual source.

Your “Genius” will help you map out a plan for your next project, all you need to do is free yourself. We tend to treat ourselves like machines but we aren’t machines, and our ideas aren’t ours to claim (especially the good ones). Acknowledge your source.

Once we stop tiring ourselves by trying to find the next big thing, then we will be able to progress on our creative paths. Let the genius craft you, don’t craft the Genius.

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6 Life Changing lessons I have learned from the Armor of God

Bible study is very redundant and uninteresting. The Bible study leaders don’t go in depth. This Bible study, however, was different. Priscilla Shirer takes her time and explains the idea of the Armor of God from Ephesians and why it is important. Not only did I learn about the Armor of God, but I also learned about myself. I have learned that I built a cage for myself. I was the reason I wasn’t doing my best. Through this Bible study, I am able to destroy this cage and do better for myself and I want you to do the same. I want to share some lessons from Bible study that liberated me, and hopefully, you will feel the same way. Here are some questions that I had before that Bible study has answered. Maybe you have had the same questions too…

Have you ever felt like you’ll never be Righteous?

One of the most liberating lessons that I have learned from Bible study is that I am Righteous. It feels great to know that I don’t have to be perfect to be righteous. Knowing that I am righteous gives me the courage to follow God’s law. The law isn’t as overwhelming. I can focus more on the relational aspect of God’s law and do his will.

What is Sanctification?

Sanctification is a process.
Through our love for God, we choose to do what is right. Through God’s love for us, we learn what is right. Sanctification is stepping into righteousness with confidence. This process is a beautiful thing. We become closer to God and learn more about ourselves. It’s a win-win situation.

Don’t I need to be perfect to be Righteous?

You won’t get righteousness from perfection.
Perfectionism is a distraction. When we are busy trying to make ourselves perfect that we forget about God’s role in our lives. We will never reach perfection on our own and plus our vision of perfection is skewed. The point is we don’t have to be perfect. We do the will of God because we love God and God loves us.

Why must I know The Truth?

It is important to know the Truth (God’s Truth)
God’s truth reduces anxiety and also gives you confidence. Knowing who you are or why you do the things that you do is very helpful. Through God’s insight, we can be our best. God’s truth is also helpful for making decisions. It protects you from events that could’ve happened or delayed processes.

What is Faith?

Faith is “assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of thing hoped for, the conviction of things not seen“. Faith is action. Faith also means to wait. This also means don’t follow your own plan. With faith, you know God will give you an answer.

Will I ever have peace now? Do I have to wait until I go to Heaven

Peace is internal.
Peace is already inside of you, just tap into it. It is a guide. It is clarity, confidence, and stability. It doesn’t just come when you go to heaven it comes as a result of gratitude.
Reflecting or referencing what God has done for you, others or God brings peace.

I am not finished with Bible study yet but I have learned a lot. These lessons gave me a new outlook on life and Christianity. Now, I know that the only thing holding me from being the best in me. Everything that I need is already within me. I just need to tap into it.

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Being A Vessel For God

I often go back to Elizabeth Gilbert’s first Ted talk where she urges the audience to change their perspective on the connotation of genius. I remember my Pastor reflected on the Ted talk and said that Elizabeth Gilbert was talking about God. In my opinion, she was talking about more than just God. Elizabeth Gilbert talked about our relationship with God. Specifically, being a vessel for God.

I use to look at being a vessel for God in a negative light. I didn’t like the terms USE and VESSEL because it sounded empty and void of life. Once I began my Bible Study, The Armor of God, and my perspective changed.

After doing my Bible study, I thought about my purpose in the world. It was a pretty random thought process (which I have pretty often). I thought about how sad it would be to be placed on this earth to do one thing… or even worse, one small thing was your purpose. I also thought about how we do not even know our purpose until it is time for us to fulfill it…then it is over. I went back to Elizabeth’s Ted Talk. There was one part in particular where she talks about the dancer dancing the one dance and possibly not dancing the same dance again. The phrase that kept popping up in my head was “IT isn’t about you”. That is when I understood it.

It really isn’t about me. The focus not being on me should be liberating. I only have to be a vessel for God. God isn’t like a business that expects me to do the same thing over and over. God IS crafting me, day by day, for his purpose. I don’t have to carry the weight of the responsibility. I don’t need to know my purpose until God is ready to reveal it to me.

I use to be jealous of my best friend because I would compare myself to her. We both have always wanted to know what God wants us to do in life. She is with a ministry and has it defined. I, on the other hand, am still dabbling in my loves, the only thing I am trying to ground myself in is Christianity. But now that I know What I know now I can focus on what is more important.

I use to be so wrapped up in trying to figure out what my purpose was that I was suicidal. I was at University and I didn’t know what to do. On top of that, I see others who have these well-thought-out plans and doing things with their lives. Now that I know I don’t have to know what my purpose is and I do not need to compare myself to others…I can put more focus on me and My relationship with God.

Today, if you struggled with something similar I encourage you to stop wondering what your purpose is. Again, it is not for you to know at this time. Instead, focus on building up a relationship with God. I highly recommend reading the Armor of God. It helped me put some things in perspective and I am sure you will enjoy it. The link is down below along with some other great titles!


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Scaling Back

 

 

Scaling Back

The Chronicles of Phoenix was my first official script and I didn’t know what I was doing. I “dove in head first” trying to learn as I went along. Honestly, the story was not flowing. I wasn’t feeling it.

I recently switched from writing in a structured format to a freewriting format. I feel like that works for me. Back to stage one.

On another hand, the other script that I was working on, I enjoy working on it. There is another story that I am freewriting and I enjoy working on that as well.

With The Chronicles of Phoenix, I tried to stretch the story and make it 100 pages. It wasn’t a 100-page script. This time I will try and not stretch it out and flow with the story.

The thing about working on projects is that it’s necessary to start on a small scale and take things in pieces.

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