Fleeting Thoughts and Struggling Commitments

Fleeting thoughts or I should say random good ideas that I make on the fly are kind of like a vice to me. It feels right for the moment, but it’s temporary. I can’t seem to stick to one idea and finish (which I talked about in scaling back). Some of my thoughts have to take a back seat because of circumstances. It is very frustrating. I haven’t been able to write as often because of my emotions, or I am too busy trying to chase after something else.

Because I don’t have any obligations and I am not in a romantic relationship I thought that I would try and go back to Australia. That was one of my life’s goals. I have been looking for a job and attempting to save some money but again life’s circumstances happen, and then I pretty much have to wait.

I wanted to finish The Chronicles of Phoenix, but I became depressed and frustrated that I couldn’t even work on it anymore, I stopped writing on my blog for a while as well.

Most of the time I feel like I have to do something. I have to start a business, go back to University, just something.

What I didn’t realize is that I am not grounded in anything.

I haven’t laid a foundation for myself. I am struggling with some things internally that keep me away from pursuing things that I want. I do want to go to Australia, but I feel as if it hard to accomplish that goal. I want to finish my stories, but again it is hard to achieve that goal.

I say that the problem is life circumstances but what if it is me?

I want to change this narrative.

I am almost finished with one of my favorite self-help books which are, Healing your past and Releasing your future, this book was very eye-opening and inspirational, but now I think instead of just using self-help books I want to do a therapy plan.

I usually do not like counseling, but I think it is time to go. Lately, I have wished I had someone to talk to about my problems, and I want to heal. I felt like I was working through my problems, but then so many things had happened, and I went back a step.
I feel lost and confused. I want clarity. So here is my plan of action:

Float Therapy:
Float Therapy works, I was thoroughly surprised by how I felt after Float therapy and I have been thinking about including it in a monthly regime. Float therapy is a great time to clear my mind and relax.

Counseling:
I have found a counselor who fits my needs, and I am excited about the process. I am glad that I can release some baggage that I have kept in or I have released in the wrong way.

Spirituality:
I want to have a deeper relationship with God. Lately, I have been conscious of how I act and what I say. I want to read more of the Bible and Pray more. I am upset when I don’t spend enough time with God. I have also been doing a new Bible Study in Romans.

Many of us have a lot of setbacks; it could be life’s circumstances or ourselves. But sometimes we need to have a change of perspective. Maybe you don’t know where your life is going and can’t make up your mind. I encourage you to take this journey with me to pursue serenity and creative freedom.

 

 

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Hi Everyone, I just wanted to let you know that I had posted a blog post on Medium. I wanted to try something different.  Anywho, I have a lot of posts written, but I just need to read over them, and I will publish them.  For now, please enjoy and reflect on this piece that I have written thus far. I am sure that you’ll find it helpful.:)

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How To Write A Story: Fin

After you edit the story publish it.
Let the world view what you have created. Some viewers will critic you writing and others will praise it. But before you listen to others form your own opinion. Your opinion is the most important one.

When you do listen to the comments, discern which ones are to help you with your next project from the comments that are negative. Take the comments that help and your thoughts and move on to the next project. Do not beat yourself up about what you could’ve done differently on this project. Move on.

As I come to a close, I would like to say that I hope that you have been inspired. I enjoy sharing my journey of self-expression. If you are a beginner in the world of writing, don’t give up and don’t compare yourself to others. You may feel like you have nothing to offer or other people are doing what you would like but better. Stop lying to yourself. You are an awesome, unique individual who has something to share. Continue to share regardless. Success or failure, You have something to share.

Let me know about the stories you plan to write!

Some Tools For You!

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How To Write a Story: Going Through The Fire of Editing

How To Write a Story: The Process of Writing and Tips!

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How To Write a Story: Introduction

There are a lot of stories, and a lot of mediocrity, but there is a story that hasn’t been told. You have an idea for the perfect story, but you don’t know how to share it with the world. I was in the same position, but through my years of writing, I have learned some valuable lessons that I would like to share.

I’ve written many stories and explored many different mediums to express myself. These mediums include: storyboarding, book writing and now screenwriting. With this blog series will be a step by step guide on how to write a story. Most of the information that I will be presenting comes from experience. These pointers have helped me, now let me help you. You have the ideas, and I have the plan to make those ideas come to life.

The first step to writing a story is knowing what you want to write about. Think of something that you would like to see in a book or movie. These ideas can include building a world, character or scenario that you want to explore. The idea is the foundation for your story. The idea is the focus of your story and it will help you stay organized.

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Here are some tools I highly recommend you getting so that you can start your journey to writing a story.

Here is a notebook for when you write down your ideas and begin to outline.
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A couple of pens to help you write down your ideas
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BIC Round Stic Xtra Life Ball Pen, Medium Point (1.0mm), Black, 36-Count

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Pursuing Serenity (Your Top Priority)

As someone who lives with mental illness, my biggest desires are peace and joy. It is hard trying to obtain it when you are in constant battle with your mind.

I always say that I want to be living and not surviving but I never knew what living was. I always thought living was doing what everyone seems to do nowadays: find financial freedom and travel. I always knew that there was more to life than that (I still want to travel). I caught glimpses of what actual living was through podcasts and sermons.

The living is taking life in bits with patience. We are always doing something. I take great pride in being a busybody but, it feels better to simplify life. My mother said it best: take life second by second, minute by minute and day by day. We tend to forget to take it all in slowly and through pieces. It is easy because we are fed so much information at once. There is easy access to everyone and less privacy.

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Advice for Black Female Creatives

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If you are anything like me, you have had a hard time getting through life with being black, female and creative.  It’s hard. Many people will find you weird and you won’t have much support from your family. Your dreams and goals will not be respected plus it’s hard finding someone to click with. You will seek affirmation and people who understand you but it’s hard getting what you need.

Even though having people behind you is good, but no one will understand your vision like you. You are the one who will carry out this vision. In order to do this, stop caring about what is cool and what everyone else is doing. Be willing to be human even though Black Women are prideful in hiding their emotions. Build up the confidence to stand behind the vision and yourself.

Give birth to your universe. Don’t think you are too small or too big and don’t let your race or gender tell you otherwise.
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