Today overall was a good day. I don’t know about other people but I tend to be some what of a loner. I like being alone (I do like company every once in a while) and I really like to be alone in my room. Being in my room most of the time runs me crazy because I am mostly watching youtube videos and then being hard on myself for not being such as spiritual person but I have to remember that God does not expect me to be at perfection all in one day. God looks at my heart and my soul. He knows me. He knows me. He loves me. He looks past all the little stuff. It just seems so hard to be receptive towards him.
On a good note I must have been receptive towards him because I have been shown favor. It has been a time of darkness but it seems like for the last couple of days the smallest stuff has made me very happy. I got two apple pies, discounts on food, extra food and it is all wonderful. I also was able to un plug from the world and be in silence and peace. I planned to write while I was in the coffee shop today but I was so overwhelmed with silence that I could not even pick up the pen. It all felt good. I liked just looking out into the streets with my cup of coffee (which is odd because I love tea). I felt great and present. I was not lost and just anxious but at peace. I was not worried about the future. I did not care about what was going on. I was just happy with sitting there. I probably looked high to everyone else but I was calm.
If you ever wonder if God is there or conversing with you or going down the right path here you go:
“the peace of God,which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”