To those who are avid or life-long anime watchers you have probably seen Welcome to The N.H.K. If not, I recommend it to you. Welcome to The N.H.K is an anime series (obiviously) about a guy named Sato who is a hikikomori which is basically a person who never leaves home. Recently I had finished the anime and found some painful similarties to my own life that Sato had. After my summer semester at SWIC all I did was sit in the house. I wasn’t allowed to go out the house too much during school so basically I either went to school or was at home. When school ended all I did was sit at home. I found my room to be my personal holding cell. I kept hearing things, thinking that people were talking about me. I couldn’t sleep at times. I found myself running away through internet and writing. I never wanted to think too much about reality but once I was away from the virtual reality I get anxious.
Now I am in Atlanta, Georgia. for 11 hours I did not want to think about what was next. I only slept just twice (usually I can sleep for the whole time). I left the four wall holding cell and now I am in a different state without the comfort I had felt before. It feels odd being here and on my own. Today was my off-day from having to go to school and I found myself going through what I like to call the N.H.K complex. I felt very anxious at the thought of going outside of my dorm or having to change clothes because I was hungry. Luckily I went outside my dorm twice (victory for me).