More about Bipolar Medication

Why is bipolar medication in pill form?

Why must it be taken every day?

It does not make sense…

How do these pharmaceutical companies think that someone with Bipolar Disorder, who already has trouble with a routine, is going to take medication every day at the same time?

Not only that but the side effects of medication are incredibly daunting.

Why can’t we just have better meds?????

Tell me your thoughts below…

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ART DILEMMA: Challenging Myself, Doing Something other than Faces

As I draw the hair for my newest creative project, I ask myself, am I challenging myself?
I draw faces most of the time,
Should I do something different?
should I try and draw an entire scene or buildings (which are hard for me)
Am I putting enough detail in my art?

Is it aesthetically pleasing enough?
What about the intention behind the art, is the artist suppose to have a particular purpose.

All of these questions inhibit the artistic process and keeps me from finishing, maybe even keeps me from being true to myself, being authentic.

Let me know what you think or if you have ran into similar thoughts and what is your solution

Balsa is Best Girl: Moribito Reflection

I have two questions…

 

Have you watched Moribito yet?

and

Why haven’t you watched it?

 

It is an excellent show from the 2000s era, which was a unique era for anime. This anime has everything you need for a good show, intriguing plot, good action scenes and fantastic characters.

 

What is Moribito?

 

Moribito is an anime about a cursed prince who was supposed to be murdered to save his kingdom, but a female warrior comes to his country and makes a pact with the cursed prince’s mother to protect the prince.

 

Why is Moribito awesome

 

What makes Moribito impressive is the elements of depth and surprise. A lot of older anime have this element; It is what makes anime extremely unique way of storytelling. The portion of storytelling is usually something that may seem random, off-hand, propels the entire story into another realm. With Moribito, the element of surprise is another world. This series not only delves into the culture and how religious matters affect politics. What may seem like just another fighting show on the surface turns into something much more than that.

 

Another part of Moribito that shines is the characters. None of the characters seemed like an antagonist. They were very level-headed, and their motives were easy to relate too. Chaggum, the prince, was a fantastic character. He wasn’t your typical annoying prince or a fairytale like the prince. He had his snobby moments but also moments of leadership. He let his actions speak for him more than his words.

 

Balsa, the main character is another great character.  She expresses her morals and values through everything she does. The way her role is designed down to her fight style tells you more about her than she will say about herself. What makes Balsa amazing is the fact that she is a real ride or dies. She will go to complete a job or protect those she cares about. It does not matter if she is facing an invisible monster or will have a life of running away from royal guards. Balsa will finish what she starts, and I find that quite astonishing.

 

If you like the emotional element of Fullmetal Alchemist or you are looking for an excellent anime from the 2000s era, this is the show for you.

The “War” on Drugs (Rant and Reflection)

Everything concerning drugs: medical and recreational is messed up. Everyone wants to fight the war on drugs and stop the distribution, we have our DARE programs and commercials.

 

None of this is working obviously …and that is because we don’t address the actual issue.

 

The issue starts in mind, we don’t address mental health while talking about drugs.

 

Mental illness plays a critical role that leads to drug addiction.

 

From my experiences with taking medication for mental illness,

 

The medication isn’t that great.

 

I only took the medication when I wanted too, and when I felt great, I stopped taking it.

 

I am not the only person who struggles with taking medication consistently and honestly it does not make sense to put people who struggle with inconsistency in the first place to take medication.

 

Not only is taking the medication for mental health is negative but also everything that happens after you receive your diagnosis which makes life a lot harder.

 

People view you as different.

 

Some loved ones will never understand

 

And Medicinal Industry sees you as a test subject rather than a human being.

 

The War on drugs is an excuse for not doing better in the mental health field as well as incriminate African Americans.

 

If the United States really wanted to fight the War on Drugs than a good start would be at the root…mental illness.

Persistence

This week has been emotionally tough. I haven’t been in the mood to write or even open up my documents to begin the process. I had nothing to write about and nothing to share. I was not in the right place at all. I talked to my mother earlier, and she told me about the Woman and The judge and how through the Woman’s persistence she was able to accomplish her goal. It was the word persistence that struck me. It is interesting how you need to be persistent to be consistent. You have to push through feelings, problems that are present and anxiety/depression. You can not quit. The will to be persistent is the drive that leads to consistency.

Every day it will feel like you are tearing down brick walls named, “I don’t FEEL like it” or “I am not in the mood.”  Somedays those walls won’t even be knocked down, and you will slip back into inconsistency.  But true persistency is when you get back up, and you fight harder. Each time you get knocked down, fight. Every time you run into a wall, fight. Fight to win and don’t give up.

First Sensory Deprivation Experience

I was terrified at first. I did lots of research on everything dealing with the experience. I wanted to make sure that it aligned with me spiritually and mentally before I even tried it. What had scared me about the tank was a death inside of the Tank, but with further research, I found out that what I had feared was highly unlikely.

I choose a facility with people who had a background in mental health and psychology which made me feel better-taken care of.

The experience was very intergalactic. I couldn’t stay in the tank with the lights off, but it was a fantastic experience. I thought I wouldn’t be able to settle down because I had anxiety but that wasn’t the case. I eventually relaxed. I did have some scary moments like when the lights were off. My mind wasn’t in the right place, but then It started to calm down until I was one with myself. I heard my heartbeat and concentrated on it.

The water was the perfect temperature.

I thought of my mother, God, and a song.

I went looking for clarity. I left overall happy and in a positive mental state.

The first time probably was not the best because I kept going in and out of my meditative state, but I bet the next time will be much better.

 

Healing Your Past and Releasing Your Future

Healing is something that is near and dear to my heart. It is the space that I am in right now, it is my focus.  I have been through a lot and some of the things that I have been through inhibited me from moving forward in my life.  Living in the past has left me confused and directionless.   When I acknowledged that I needed some clarity in my life, it was time to start reading Healing Your Past and Releasing Your Future.

Have you ever felt directionless, a lack of clarity or even like you don’t know your purpose? Maybe it is time for us to start our healing journies instead of looking for a purpose.

I have had this book collecting dust or in the back of a bag somewhere and I finally decided to read it. I needed to read it.  This book for me was going to be the blueprint for healing.

While Reading Healing Your Past and Releasing Your Future

Healing is a process. It includes letting go of baggage and replacing it with positive things. Healing can mean not replaying a particular part of your past, which can happen subconsciously or consciously.

Some steps towards healing include acknowledging, letting go and moving on.  One of the parts of Healing Your Past and Releasing Your Future is the structure and steps provided. At the end of each chapter, there are steps to healing, freedom, and restoration and then charts showing healthy and unhealthy development.

Structure of Chapters

Each chapter starts off with a story/example and breaks off to explain what is suppose to happen at each stage.  After the explanation,  we get the conclusion of the story which is when the primary person goes through the healing process and is restored.

The chapter concludes with the charts as mentioned earlier and steps towards healing.

What I learned

One of the most interesting points that the book makes is that the world doesn’t run on feelings. That phrase made me think of my relationship with my emotions. I had confused my feelings with intuition.  My feelings had ruled my world and told me what to do. After reading that phrase, I decided to let that way of thinking go.

This book also helped me identify roots and triggers. I found that going through each stage of development was helpful and learning the outcomes of each step has also opened my eyes.

The Ending of Healing Your Past, Releasing Your Future

The end ties everything together.  The Fabiano’s compares physical and emotional development with spiritual development which I found to be very helpful.  The ending could have been a little bit more polished as far as ideas are concerned. Otherwise, it tied everything together.

Summary

If you are someone who is looking to get started on their healing journey I recommend this book as the first step. Healing your past and releasing your future is a blueprint for you to begin mapping out triggers or specific struggles that you need to work through.

For me:

Even though the book can be classified as a self-help book, after reading it I feel more encouraged to go to therapy. This book has helped me identify some internal struggles of mine, and it’ll make my therapy journey much more thorough.

Resources


Healing Your Past, Releasing Your Future: Discover the Roots of Your Problems, Experience Healing and Breakthrough to Your God-given Destiny